A hopeless journey

I watched myself being drowned
Into the abyss of my own grieves
Raging columns of fire all around
Why is it that fate always weaves
Only sufferings for me to be bound

After much thought I set out
To find that bird called hope
All that surrounded me was a doubt
Would I be able to cling to that rope
And help myself out of this life’s bout

Through the wild forests I passed
Raging, thundering seas I crossed
Scorching deserts that would never last
Several times I felt I was lost
What kept me going was determination of my task

At last I found my reason to live
My heart jolted out with glee
Whatever it required I would give
To protect it no matter what the fee
Cause I had found the essence of my life

Alas! My happiness was so short lived
All I could do was watch and yell
As the eagle took away my gift
Confining my screams to an empty well
Helplessly I watched as all I cared was lost

Why is life so difficult for me
Leaving only despair in its wake
Why didn’t anyone care to see
Down and down I drowned in the lake
Waiting for my existence to cease to be

My miseries

“Fall back on me
and ill be the strength you need
ill be there forever
when none else would be
 

just don’t ever break me
cause this mask is all i have
don’t push me, don’t make me fall
just to see the other side of me

 

behind all this
hides a broken man
but maybe none will ever see
for to get to him there’s a high fee

 

but there’s no saving him
deep within layers he lies
been dormant for too long
already said all his goodbyes

 

but maybe it all doesn’t matter
all people need is an empty shell
drain it of all its strength
and move on when none’s left

 

save him maybe
or maybe let him be
a choice people don’t bother to make
all they do is never give only take

 

too many maybes in life
too many uncertainties
where do i go, what do i do
to end these never ending miseries”